Just pure illusions and delusions...

I cant remember if i posted this before..
But i have a new blog for my life in NZ :)
Been having it for the past 2 mths infact..

www.kiwi-auckland.blogspot.com and do leave a tag if you drop by!

Enjoy! :)

Im sure some of you'll would have felt the same way as me before..

Hating to hear the stories about all those sweet guys/girls out there who do sweet things for their significant others. Yes im being a sore thumb :X

Grrr.

Hmm same ole thing bothering me.. the same thing that has been bothering me for like 1 and half yrs..

Only have 4 weeks left here..
But somehow i dont think it really matters to some people.

Something saddened me today. Something that i never thought i'd experience. At least not this fast.
Dont wish to go into details. But its something that hurt my esteem quite a bit. Nothing to do with relatioships, nothing to do with insults.

Sometimes i wonder what i really want. Is it worth studying so hard? Is it worth working so hard? Is it worth being such a perfectionist? Having some drilled into me since a young girl, its just so hard to change. Sometimes i wish i could turn back time and change some things in my life.

Is it worth compramising what you really want for something lesser? How long can one stay trying to act satisifed when the person really aint?

Just as a disclaimer, all 3 issues are unrelated stuff.

For the first time ever, NTU released our exam results ON TIME alth we are always the last among the 3 unis in sg to get them back..

Did reasonabally ok. Pretty much the same as last sem's results. And as usual, the module i thought i had done best in ended up as my worst module.. I have no idea why this always happens but hecks.. And the module i thought i had screwed up ended up as my best module :X Ok this just shows i have bad perception of things. Lol.

Man my sleep cycle is pretty bad.
In other news, i just got my air tickets today..
Going to get my visa on monday..
Managed to get an off on that day but my day will be really packed as i gotta take my visa, go for a med checkup, go to the tailor etc.
Man this trip is going to cost a lot!
And it'd be winter when i get there :D
But there'll be no snow =(

In other news, my jc clique is planning a class chalet (for the first time ever) on the 4th or 5th of july..
Cant wait!
Had great fun with them yest at Timbre..
The thin crush pizza there rocks!
Alth they are DAMN stingy with the size of the drinks they serve (dont bother going to drink there :X)

Oh and here's a big thanks for Jal for being such a sweetie and travelling all the way to NTU to help me collect AUT's package for me :D Love you dear!!

Anyway its pretty confirmed. Im due to fly from Singapore to Auckland on the 11th of July which leaves me with around 5 weeks in Singapore. Out of these 5 weeks 4 weeks will be spent at work so that kinda sucks :X But ok i shant complain since i managed to get released from my internship one week earlier.

Still feeling quite unsatisfied. I really wish this feeling will go away but technically, its not really within my control.. Oh well.